The Story Of Darcy

I've been off work for almost three years and this week, I have just been made aware that they are unable to hold the role any longer and that they would be replacing me full-time, rather than with a temporary cover. I wish I could say I was surprised, I've been expecting it for a while and the fact it hasn't happened before now is the most surprising.

I don't know if I'm ever going to be fit enough to return to work - if I am, I doubt it's going to be for years - so I completely understand that they can't hold my job indefinitely and I love that they have done it this long. Frankie and I have been in a number of times, to see my friends etc (they always love seeing her), and everything is running smoothly. The young man who's taking over, Tim, is brilliant at the job and if I have to be replaced, I'm pleased it's with him.

It's a shame. It was all but my dream job. I read Ancient History at university and being able to work in that library and in that subject was amazing. I know that if my health improves to a point when I can go back to work, there are other related jobs in the field that I could do. I've even thought about maybe continuing on to do some post-graduate study in the field.

First things first though. I need to get through the now before I think of the future, and part of that is going to include a type of mourning/grief for my loss.

Hi all

Sorry for disappearing on you - I've been in the hospital for a couple of weeks and recovering at home for another couple. I'm still not feeling 100% but I'm doing better than I have been.

Rob's parents have been amazing looking after Frankie for me - she's still with them this week and I miss her like crazy. They visit every day though and hopefully, she should be coming home next week, we'll see how I'm doing at the weekend.

This is the first time I've turned on my laptop in a while, it's installed a bunch of updates and now I'm working on catching up on my emails and social media and stuff. I've got a little nest made up on my couch, Rob's made sure I've got drinks and snacks and blankets. I think my plan for right now is to watch the rest of S1 of Supernatural and continue falling in love with Sam Winchester